Hangry
I’m terrified of what I need
What I crave
You all over me
Over and over again
Trust
Consistency
Love
You are my favorite drug
And I freak out
Because my mind takes over
Afraid of what I feel
All the chemicals going through me with you are real
And when you go away I crash
When you fuck someone else
I crash and burn
Then I just keep craving you
Until I learn
I never learn
It always comes back
To needing you
And wanting you all over again
Torture
Pain
Hell
Because you aren’t there
You can’t handle me
I’m too much
I can’t handle what I feel it’s too much
We don’t even talk anymore
And it’s not fucking fair
It’s like playing a game of truth or dare
The anxiety takes over
Because my heart knows better
You’re not real
What I want doesn’t exist
So it comes back to this
Angry
Horny
Lovesick
Alone
Asking for someone to throw me a bone
Then I run
Coming undone
Because
There
Is
No
Trust
Which means there is no love
And I’m back at square one
Horny, lovesick, and alone
Longing for what I will never have.